pondering them in her heart
I have a confession to make, I don’t have much of a blog post prepared for this week, this post is mostly stream of consciousness. Last week I battled a wretched case of pneumonia and am still managing the exhaustion and fatigue. I spent most of last week lying down, which proved to have some perks and some frustrations. The perks were that it forced me to slow down and created many opportunities to cuddle up and watch sappy Hallmark movies with my babes. The only real frustrating part was getting a little cabin fever after a while.
The time I spent with my children was a welcome shift from our normal busy schedule. My November and December calendar tends to fill up more than I would like it to and I end up craving down time to just “be.” I found myself relishing the quiet and stillness of it. During the lazy stretch of one day I found myself genuinely basking in the presence of my children. The cuddles, the smell of their hair, the excitement in their voices brought on by the shift in our pace and it caused me to think about these words from Luke, “but Mary treasured up all these things, pondering them in her heart” and I began to really relate to what she must have been feeling in those moments and days after her son, the Savior of the world, was born. I could imagine the scene, as the sleepy world grew more aware of the birth of Christ, as the shepherds traveled to witness this event that the angels had announced, as the Magi traveled to see the newborn king, Mary held still, holding her Christ child, relishing her infant son. Over several days this passage continued to stay with my thoughts, I love when the Holy Spirit speaks to me in this way. As I contemplated this passage, laying there for for hours and days, affording my body time to recover, I felt a strong connection to Mary’s pondering. My own stillness was affording my heart the opportunity to be still, and hold my children and relish every moment.
As I thanked God for raising my awareness to this blessing, I wondered about the deeper meaning this passage may hold. No doubt that Mary was relishing these moments with her newborn son, but was there more meaning here, was she looking upon her son, feeling the full weight of the task God had given her, the task of not just giving birth to the Savior of the world, but the reality that she is the mother of God made man and this journey of raising Jesus would require her to not only treasure the moments, but to ponder and keep her eyes and her faith fixed on God. And isn’t this true for each of us? It’s easy to lose sight of what’s most important in life, it’s easy to allow distractions to veer us from our course or to block our view of God and what He is calling us to do. Today I pray that I can be more like Mary, to be ready with a faith filled yes to Gods call and to treasure up and ponder what’s most important, never losing sight of my blessings.