just take the first step
I took this picture from a page in my bullet journal ... I put that sticker in weeks ago not realizing how much I would need it later - today is later- today taking the first step feels like trudging thru wet cement- today feels like all the responsibilities of the world are perched squarely on my shoulders and in all honesty, I just don’t feel like it. My to do list staring me down and I can’t make eye contact. My lists of “should have done” has spilled over for days while I search for every justification to put it off yet another day because today I just don’t feel like it. In all honesty, I’m feeling a little salty about it all, do you ever get to this place? I think the popular phrase is “I just can’t adult today” except, I haven’t felt like adulting for a week now 😬 As we say around here, I have the mully grubs.
I have decided instead of beating myself up over it, I’m going to just lean into it, own it and sit squarely in it. Today I am going to practice my exhale...find comfort in being present, unwind in rest and just let all of these things go
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." Proverbs 3:5